Health care is a basic human right, not a privilege. For some reason, we’ve allowed ourselves as Americans to be fooled into accepting that one must be blessed with “means” to actuate appropriate health care. As a nation we have failed to realize that our health care system is a barometer of our society’s value for human life.

-Me

Friday, March 16, 2007

In the Mail

Not long ago I was struggling with the decision to leave my second job. I struggled with the decision as it meant cutting a cold, hard 250 bucks of room out of my budget. 250 bucks I just didn’t have. With that cold, hard fear next to my heart I decided to put in my notice. I did it without knowing where the money was going to come from. I did it with strained hope in God’s power to provide. I set my fear aside so it was not the primary determinant of my decision, and I made a choice I had to make.

Yesterday after therapy, I was so tired. It was family fun night at Sandis’s school but I had to let the kids down because I just couldn’t do it. The exhaustion was heavy on my lids and heavy in my shoes. I couldn’t even make dinner. I took an extra 20 and ordered pizza. I was heavy in heart. Heavy in spirits. Heavy all over.

In my mail came a small envelope from the United States Treasury, located in Kansas City, MO? Whatever. Wherever it is located. I was thinking my taxes were automatically deposited in my savings account. It looked like a check. I thought maybe there was some weird tax refund I didn’t know about that they’d just take right back next year around tax time. Inside was a check for over $1500 dollars and it bore my name, Sandis’s name, and the words SSI. We were approved. No letter. No phone call. Just a check. Is this how it works?

As I opened my apartment door my hands were shaking. Tears were forming in the corner of my eyes.

A friend of mine said last night: “Well, In an ideal situation Sandis wouldn’t need that.”

But we do. We do.

11 comments:

Kelsey said...

Awesome!

God works in mysterious ways-huh?

Great timing :)

Scott K. Johnson said...

Things always work out don't they?

Kris said...

Wow. God knows what we need and he will provide. I'm so glad you got that check to lighten your load a bit. What a big help!

Minnesota Nice said...

Sarah, I am so very pleased for you. I had the day off today and it was good in every way, and now reading this post has really put the icing on the sugar-free cake.

Kristen said...

looking for your email, dying to ask you if you are as sick as I am with this gastropareisis

Chrissie in Belgium said...

sometimes life is SO good!!!

Penny said...

yeah!!!!!

Fred (Nic) said...

I remeber when my family was applying for SSI and it was such a fight. But getting the money we needed so badly, a God send. Truly. Congrats and I hope a bit of stress has been lifeted from your shoulders. You deserve it!

Molly said...

Yahoo. Hot diggity!
Take a deep breath and smile.

Sam I Am said...

You deserve it!!!!

mumkeepingsane said...

So glad to hear you're getting some financial help. Cheers!