Health care is a basic human right, not a privilege. For some reason, we’ve allowed ourselves as Americans to be fooled into accepting that one must be blessed with “means” to actuate appropriate health care. As a nation we have failed to realize that our health care system is a barometer of our society’s value for human life.

-Me

Friday, October 12, 2007

240


Gracie's most recent blood sugar was 240. I know I've been worried before. This time it feels different. It might be nothing. It might go down just like every other time.

I'm just worried because at 3:30pm she was 169, then at 5pm she was 194, and now at 8 she is 240.

It is hard to not notice that those bloodsugars are not trending down in any sense of the word down. In fact, they are trending most certainly up.

So I asked for pee in a hat, and what do I get? No pee. she just went pee downstairs.

It is hard not to cry a little, even if the tears are inward. The disappointment is just as raw.

Hopefully things resolve without that Novolog in the next few hours.

I'm not sure when Novolog in respect to Gracie became equivalent to devil/badnastyshit. But it has. I just don't want her to have what I have. How long can I pretend that she doesn't?

As long as I don't have to carb-count her meals.

5 comments:

Rachel... said...

:( I hate the idea that you're having to deal with it at all, much less your child, too. But, on the bright(er) side, she has you to learn from. If she has to deal with it, then she should have someone to follow.

Chrissie in Belgium said...

I don't know what to say except - I am SO SORRY!

Minnesota Nice said...

Oh damn it Sarah. As Rachel said, she will have someone wonderful to follow. But the "major suckage" aspect doesn't dimish.
Pink candle for you guys tonight.

KC's Blog said...

Gosh it has got to be tough on you Mom. I feel for you guys, especially beautiful Gracie being such a little kiddo and all.
The plus side is she will learn how to take good care of her diabetes from you.
Prayers for you both tonight and big hugs

Penny said...

Sarah

(((hug)))